I will not be afraid of love today.
Today, through Your Holy Spirit, You helped me to remember how I have been afraid of love. You helped me to remember how I have habitually held back from expressing love to others because of fearful feelings in the moment. I have often felt ashamed for feeling afraid to do simple little loving things for another, such as giving someone a heartfelt and meaningful hug within my own family.
As I reflected on this today, I realized that I usually held back because I didn’t feel safe. For some reason, I came to believe in my unconscious mind that love was going to hurt me somehow. Somewhere along the line, probably from my childhood, I learned the lessons of love from the ego’s perspective. All these years, without even really realizing it, I have been listening to the voice of the ego; the voice of fear. I have been holding back from what my heart really wanted to do. I really do not understand all of the things that I do or why I do them, but I do want to learn how to be free and happy again.
Father, I want to learn how to be truly free of fear. I am tired of feeling afraid for one reason or another. I am tired of feeling afraid to be joyful and happy more of the time. I am tired of worrying about what I could be doing or should be doing.
Father, I would really like to try something new for a change. Would You please teach and show me how to be truly happy and joyful all the time?
Excerpt from Lesson 282 in our Journey Through the Workbook for Students: Divine Messages