I found myself gazing through the Table of Contents of the Text of the Course this morning looking for something for Deb but I noticed that my eyes kept locking on to a particular section. I thought that perhaps the Holy Spirit was guiding me to read this section but wasn’t sure at first and so I ignored the urge and went on to something else. A minute or so later I noticed that my eyes began to lock on to the title of this section again, “The Decision for God.” (Text, Chapter 5, Section VII) So I decided to take a few minutes to read the section.
As I did, I began to recognize that the Holy Spirit was speaking very directly to me at that moment about the physical sickness that I was experiencing in my mind and body at this time. In the section, He was telling me that on some level I had made a decision to experience this sickness and that I was using it to attempt to block God’s Love from my awareness. I was using the sickness to block myself from hearing the Holy Spirit’s Voice speak to me. And then at the end of the section I felt like He had given me a prayer that I could use to heal myself of this sickness. I believe that if I do as He instructs that I will be healed.
At the end of the section, Jesus gives us these instructions:
Therefore, the first step in the undoing is to recognize that you actively decided wrongly, but can as actively decide otherwise. Be very firm with yourself in this, and keep yourself fully aware that the undoing process, which does not come from you, is nevertheless within you because God placed it there. Your part is merely to return your thinking to the point at which the error was made, and give it over to the Atonement in peace. Say this to yourself as sincerely as you can, remembering that the Holy Spirit will respond fully to your slightest invitation:
I must have decided wrongly, because I am not at peace.
I made the decision myself, but I can also decide otherwise.
I want to decide otherwise, because I want to be at peace.
I do not feel guilty, because the Holy Spirit will undo all the consequences of my wrong decision if I will let Him.
I choose to let Him, by allowing Him to decide for God for me.
And so today, I dedicate my day to practice in silent meditation allowing the Holy Spirit to decide for God for me because on this decision all salvation rests.
Excerpt from Lesson 239 in our Journey Through the Workbook for Students: Divine Messages