Review Lesson 193
When the time came for the problem to be resolved and it wasn’t, I began to feel stressed, irritated and angry. I wasn’t meeting my expectations and so I began to believe in my own inadequacies and shortcomings. I began to feel angrier and a self-hatred. I felt trapped not knowing which way to go to solve the problem. I felt more and more disconnected from Inner Wisdom. Blinders were put on within my mind and I was unable to focus clearly. My mind became closed instead of open to possible alternatives in solving the problem.
I became so wrapped up and frustrated on this situation that I became absolutely miserable and useless in a way. I eventually stepped away from the situation and carried the anger and the fear with me for a long time. I felt like I had failed a very simple task and was afraid that my co-workers would look down upon me and criticize me for failing. This was a very unpleasant experience. It was my own little hell within the illusion of hell. It wasn’t until I began to completely resurrender myself to God that I began to feel a letting go and feel free again.
Excerpt from Lesson 213 in our Journey Through the Workbook for Students: Divine Messages