There is no peace except the peace of God.
When I got home from work yesterday I was feeling tired, stressed and worried. I felt tired because I hadn’t slept well the night before and I felt stressed because the day was unusually chaotic and busy for me. My “to-do” list at work was growing faster than I could solve the problems. I was feeling worried because my contract for employment is due to expire soon and I hadn’t heard about any opportunities to be hired on as a permanent employee come up yet. Of course, the ego part of my mind felt free to analyze my performance over the last year and point out all of my deficiencies and shortcomings. Needless to say, all of these attacks and judgments churning in the back of my mind through the day managed to dampen my spirit and my desire to feel happy and playful.
I decided it would be a good idea to sit down and lay back in my resting chair and practice stopping all the thoughts in my mind for awhile. I closed my eyes, tilted the chair back so that I could feel comfortable and began to turn my mind inward and relax my body. As I sunk into a more peaceful place, I practiced being very still and stopping my thoughts. I hadn’t tried stopping my thoughts for a long time for a while and decided to see how long I could do this right now. I felt rather determined as I started to do this. I wanted to see if I could go for several minutes without thinking or listening to any of my thoughts.
And so I did. And as I did and actually succeeded in not listening to any thoughts or words for about a minute, I noticed an ego resistance rising within myself, a tension, an anxiousness attempted to rise within my chest. Apparently, the habitual chatter of the ego voice that the ego mind has become accustomed to listening to, felt uncomfortable listening to the peace of silence. It was something new. I instructed my mind to relax and let this anxiousness go and to focus once again on having no thoughts, no words, for as long as I could. Again, I practiced listening to silence, stillness.
Excerpt from Lesson 200 in our Journey Through the Workbook for Students: Divine Messages