Review Lessons 125-126
In the hustle and bustle of moving from one home to another, it was easy for me to be focused on all that needed to be done to have the move go smoothly. Now that we are settled in, I realized that in the busyness I had forgotten to take more time to sit quietly and nurture myself in Spirit. The ego would have me ignore the physical aches and pains, the tiredness, etc. and this is all to keep me from the love and care needed for myself through my connection with God. Feelings of sacrifice, guilt and unworthiness come to mind. A week of fast food meals, moving, running errands, picking up supplies, slowly left its toll as yesterday for me became a day of irritation and feeling overwhelmed. From burning my fingers with hot oil while cooking, to feeling frustrated that the necessary ingredients I wanted for a specific dish were not in the cupboard, to running more errands in the morning, phone calls to the plumber, internet connection problems, and other interruptions, I had hoped to find peace, but I never really took the moment to do so.
During our forgiveness journaling process, I had asked the Holy Spirit specifically to help me with the overwhelming and irritable feelings that I had been feeling. I had realized while I was journaling that I had not been caring for myself in a loving manner. I had not eaten until after lunchtime so I sacrificed myself to run errands and thus leading to the irritability that crept in and lasted the day. I did not take as much time to sit in quiet, to rest with God from all the physical and mental work of the last several days. It was still go-go-go! I see how that when I am not giving to myself in a nurturing manner, I cannot truly give to others.
Excerpt from Lesson 143 in our Journey Through the Workbook for Students: Divine Messages