“The peace of God is shining in you now, and from your heart extends around the world. It pauses to caress each living thing, and leaves a blessing with it that remains forever and forever. What it gives must be eternal. It removes all thoughts of the ephemeral and valueless. It brings renewal to all tired hearts, and lights all vision as it passes by. All of its gifts are given everyone, and everyone unites in giving thanks to you who give, and you who have received.”
Last December, I was feeling a great deal of stress. Every morning, I awoke at 2:00 or 3:00, my heart pounding and my stomach in knots. I knew the seeming source of my fear; I had no idea where I was to live at the end of July. The lease on my apartment would be up, and I couldn’t afford to renew it. Now, I have given up praying for specific things, so, when I awoke in fear, I simply quietly repeated today’s idea a few times, then took some deep breaths and did my best to realize the idea. I wasn’t always successful, but when I was, I fell back to sleep, waking up at my usual getting up time. This was not magic. It wasn’t the words which calmed me; it was the idea behind the words, that within me and all living things is the unchanging light of peace, which no outer circumstance can affect.
As for moving, in May, the manager here unexpectedly offered me a smaller apartment at a lower price. I am grateful.