As I plunge directly into Ken’s thoughts, here we go!
“Their purpose (defenses) is to show you something else, and hold correction off through self-deceptions made to takes its place”, (3:3), Ken writes:
“The purpose of defenses – bodily experiences of pleasure or pain – is to demonstrate that our problems and solutions exist outside us, as do happiness, spirituality, and disease. Thus they show us the “something else.” Remember, the ego’s fear is that at some point we would realize our mistake and choose the Atonement. The double-tiered defense, therefore, has as its purpose to prevent our ever choosing the correction. Rooting our attention to the mindless – the “something else” – effectively keeps us from returning to the mindfulness that is our right-minded goal. In the following passage, Jesus urges us to recognize the power of our minds, as he exposes the ego’s strategy of depreciating it:
”Your thinking has done this (accepted the ego’s lies) because of its power, but your thinking can also save you from this because its power is not of your making. Your ability to direct your thinking as you choose is part of its power. If you do not believe you can do this you have denied the power of your thought, and thus rendered it powerless in your belief.
The ingeniousness of the ego to preserve itself is enormous, but it stems from the very power of the mind the ego denies. This means that the ego attacks what is preserving it…The ego draws upon the one source that is totally inimical to its existence for its existence. Fearful of perceiving the power of this source, it is forced to depreciate it…The ego therefore wants to engage your mind in its own delusional system, because otherwise the light of your understanding would dispel it.” (T-7.VI.2:5-6;8:5)””
“And yet, your mind holds only what you think with God. Your self-deceptions cannot take the place of truth”, (4:1-2), to which Ken responds:
“Despite our feverish dreams of sin, guilt and fear, or any of our self-deceptive experience in the world, reality has not been affected. In the text, Jesus compares guilt to flimsy clouds, wisps of smoke, or fragile veils with no power to hide the light.”
In 4:3, where Jesus speaks to a child having any power to change the ocean, warming of the water or the reflection of the moon on it at night, Ken writes”
“The ego is as a child flailing a little stick, attempting to stop the inevitability of the truth, but with no effect. Or to shift images, we are like little mice roaring in a tiny corner of the universe, thinking we can effect change or that someone even notices us. (This reference can be found in T-21.VII.3:11).
In 4:4, where we prepare/ready our minds for understanding and recognition of the lessons we are offered, Ken writes:
“We first have to become aware of our defenses against the truth: “My mind holds only what I think with God.” We are continually drawn back to the fundamental principle in ACIM that the purpose of a relationship with the Holy Spirit is to help us look at our ego’s defenses. The love in our minds is not the problem, which is but the fear it represents – the loss of our separated self. We need to see how we protect this self by the insane things we do in the world, thinking they are important for we believe our specialness is important.”
Had a miserable day yesterday as I fought the war within myself.
Seeing all pain and frustration outside of me.
Certainly not within.
Going through a litany of too much to do in too many areas of my life and feeling overwhelmed.
Projecting all over the place.
I allowed ego to be out of control.
I was exhausted, spent, weary, sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Maybe, maybe not.
Took me all day to realize what I was doing.
Had had quite a lovely day on Monday overall, well, yes, overall, a few hiccups.
The ego’s suspicion becomes viciousness.
That’s what happened.
Ah, now feeling better.
Seeing how many areas in which I allow distractions, defenses, delusions.
Nope, don’t want any of them.
Peace is my priority today.
Have a lovely day!