“Although you are one Self, you experience yourself as two; as both good and evil, loving and hating, mind and body. This sense of being split into opposites induces feelings of acute and constant conflict, and leads to frantic attempts to reconcile the contradictory aspects of this self-perception. You have sought many such solutions, and none of them has worked. The opposites you see in you will never be compatible. But one exists.”
Not to sound flippant, but ain’t it the truth? Whenever I am stressed, anxious, scared, or angry, I feel torn into two irreconcilable parts. This was illustrated earlier today, when Waylon had an odd episode of teeth chattering. I think it’s a pain response to his dental surgery. He didn’t whine, just chattered his teeth several times, as if he was wincing and trying to get away from uncomfortable sensations. At first, I felt waves of sadness and anxiety; however, I was able to stop, take a few deep breaths, and pet my friend under his chin, which he loves. This seemed to calm him, so I repeated this when he later had another episode. I was listening to my true Self instead of the illusory one.